pls dont make it reality..

well.. there're lotsa thgs happen between both of u i know.. bt u didnt tell me much about u.. is it u worry tat it'll affect me?? i can tell u tat, it does affected me.. is it really the way u wish?? i really worry about both of u.. i know tat's many thgs tat u gotta overcome n face.. bt, pls.. do protect her heart pls.. she alrd fed up with the way i did on her.. do u ever know this?? till when only u realize?? she's alrd hurt, hurt badly bcoz of wat u did.. aren't u love her?? why dont just be tolerate n considerate?? care how she feel.. from wat i know, she did care u last time, why this time cant u take initiative to give her a call?? or sms care about her?? i really dont understand.. well, tat day u did call her, bt she didnt pick up ur call, it is bcoz she feel disappointed towards u.. dont know wat shld talk with u anymore.. everytime also end up with quarrel.. she feel very tired n fed up to hold this relationship with u.. this is wat i dont wish to see.. is it really no more way to overcome this?? or.. may be this is the best ending for both of u.. so tat.. both of u can release the heavy load, wont feel suffer anymore.. no matter wat happenn how will be the ending, to the one i care the most, pls be strong.. me n ur frens will always be there for u.. +u..

I get a part time job!! ^^

hahax.. finally, i gt a part time job.. ^^ it's mummy's fren introduce one. Soon, i'll be a tuition teacher.. ^^
bt, beside happy, i feel worry also.. worry tat i cant handle this well.. it's so much pressure to be a good n responsible tuition teacher.. smmore my students are nt primary school bt secomdary school.. although they're just F1 n F2.. bt.. i've alrd return my knowledge to my teachers.. hehe..
sorry to say tat.. scary... T^T i'm taking over 2 subject which are also the main subject.. BM n BI.. OMG.. hmm.. hopefully i can tackle this well.. good luck for me... may God bless me... ah men.. TT
i just work for 2 days in a week.. nt bad. ^^ now wat to do is, i gotta go popular to find sm revision book, exercise books n some reference books.. i'll try my best to give my students wat i knew.. yea!! let's work together!!
n also now i alrd start thinking wat should i wear only look like a teacher.. hehe.. kinda wu liao.. =p
Miss Chao, ganbatte!! ^^
all my frens whether working or no, let's add oil ba~ ^^

I see YOU.. ^^

hahax.. finally i'm back.. alrd loooong times never update my blog.. lazy actually.. XD hmm.. SPM over alrd.. now, started my life without school n friends.. T^T miss the days muchie nie.. i'm now at Ipoh, coz my home is here. A few days after the gathering with my old primary schoolmate, then i leave KL. Gdbye KL... At the beginning, i wish to go find a part time job. Then my sis told me tat Station1 Cafe there just open, may be engage for ppl. I plan to interview to become a bar tender there, bt at the end, my plan is spoilt. Nt all because of my mum, is uncle. He said dangerous for a gal to work there. ==" haiz.. then after tat, i keep go shopping with mum by the end of year 2009. hehe.. tat's how i spent my holidays.. Hmm.. at the last day of year 2009, MR'ss have plan to go for count down at the beginning, we keep discuss for this during our exam is going on.. quite look forward for this. Before tat day, i go back KL, although the plan gotta cancel, coz just left few ppl.. hehe.. then quite pity sia lor, just celebrate at home with my grandma tat side de family lor.. bt feel happy, coz gt lotsa frens send those greeting's msg for me. And i wish to thx Shinloong here, coz he called me when 12 o'clock. Kinda happy, thx a lot ya fren!! ^^ Step in year 2010, not much different lor.. i went out with my sis. We went Jusco for movie. and i damn crazy, watch AVATAR again, coz it just nice. A movie tat u cant MISSED!! ^^ then after movie, we went home and my sis went back UPM. On the next day, i gotta go back Ipoh by KTM. This is actually my second time. The time is 10.04pm, tat day, my uncle fetch me go KTM station. but we leave home very late, then he keep rush there lor, who know the traffic light nt cooperate at all, keep turns red. 'gek sei' nia.. luckily at the end, 10.00pm we reach. Phew~ luckily the train hvnt reach. Then i walk in the station n wait for the train, so lucky, i saw a leng zai standing there. hahax.. idiot nia. hmm.. Just in a while, the train reach n we going in the coach, so unlucky, we're nt in the same coach. T^T Then, after go in the train, i gotta find my seat. Bt i cant see the number of my seat, so fish lah. Last time, when my first time sit KTM, i remember tat the seat's number is behind the chair, bt this time i keep look around the chair, cant see the number also. Ppl see me standing there for so long, so paiseh, hehe..then i go ask ppl where to see the number. Finally i found.... then start my journey home. After 2 hours n 45 mins, reached Ipoh. Bt i almost missed jor, coz didnt realise, dont know where it reach. Luckily look at the watch, nearly the time reach ipoh then follow ppl go out. hehe.. quite scare. after out, then saw mummy alrd sitting on the branch there waiting me.. hehe.. then we go for supper!! ^^ Emm.. recent life.. start driving practise. Feel quite desperate at the beginning. Bt once i started to drive, scare.. long time didnt touch.. bt tat uncle quite nice.. ^^ he say first time practise is like tat, n praise me smmore, wah.. feel happy sia.. bt the second time practise, i didnt perform well. i think, uncle sure let me gek sei.. hehe.. bt today 3rd time practise, hmm, betta than 2nd time lor.. i'm worry, i cant stable my performance. T^T sometime good sometime bad. i was thinking, may be i'll be a dangerous driver at the future if i gt license.. ngek ngek!! Beware of me o!! XD haiz.. now just wish i can pass the test peacefully.. i heard ppl said tat today almost all ppl who sit for the test FAIL!! OMG!! how terrible, almost all.. they fail coz of the parking tat part, the investigators were STRICT!! they want exactly the distance. sei fo lor.. after heard this, feel scared. Bt, nvm, i gotta go on also, just wish i can perform well, i'll try to do my best. hopefully can pass.. may God bless me... ah men. ^^ hmm.. next story. emm, i'm wondering, is this the way i wish?? this is specially for u. after i wrote this, i'll give up u. Tat day, when i first meet u, we're walking around at shopping mall there. My fren told me tat his fren going to find him today, n is a handsome guy. Tat time i was thinking it's non of my bussiness, then continue shopping. But then, before we go home, we meet and we know each other after my my fren introduce to me. and we're talkative on the way home. On tat day, smthg happen, u told me smthg tat unbelievable, and tat time i think tat wat u said will never be happen, u're just joking. Bt the next day, u told my fren tat u're coming although tat day u off from work late. i was wondering.. then before u leave, u stop the car a while n keep looking in, my fren told me tat u're looking at me. is it?? is it really like wat hr said? after hr told me tat, i feel weird, cant find a word describe my feeling on tat time. He said u keep asking my stuff. And then. the next day, u gt my phone number from my fren. Well, at the beginning, i just treat u as normal fren. bt the way u talk to me n ur attitude, makes me feel good. before i leave KL, we go out together. i really wish to know wat u thinking actually, bt the way u act tat day, u makes me feel confused. when on the way go home, it's raining cats n dogs, at the moment u hold me, i feel tat ur hands are so warm. bt the evil side of my mind told me tat, i'm nt suit to u. u're perfect, looks nice, rich. this is nt wat i'm lookin for, smmore, i just a normal gal, nt pretty n nt perfect. Well, evil won angel. not dare to think so much anymore, although u done smthg tat touching me. sorry for tat. After tat day, before Christmas, i've sent u present, i think, it'll be memorable for me. sorry for wat i've done to u. thx for everythg u did to me, n now, u've found ur happiness. all the best to u.. ^^ now a days.. wow, such a boring life.. i miss school life... miss all my friends.. haiz, dont know when only we gt chance to meet. T^T
so long nia my blog, dont know wat i wrote also.. heehee.. bt, it's very details.. XD i did mention almost every part even little thg. hahax..
tat's all for now. ^^

突然好想你。。

那首歌
在我耳边响起了
勾起了
许多的回忆
回忆起
与你曾经共渡的时光。。。
今天
我想你了
只想单纯得想你。。。

你并没有离开我
只是
搬到天堂生活
你在天堂过得还好吗？
还会想起我们吗？

我们的旅程

“今天去哪里啊？”
我们今天的行程： Planetarium, Muzium Negara, Taman Orkid
哇。。一开始，大家都迫不及待要冲上巴士上，仿佛又回到去Merdeka那时候酱。。很可爱~似曾相识的感觉咯。。嘻嘻。。

[在巴士上]
哈哈哈。。开车不久，大家就忙着拿出相机，手机来拍照。。然后更“geng”的是，零食不断从前传去后，在从后面传来前面。。哈哈哈~

[目的地]
很快，我们到了--- planetarium
在进去之前，眼前一辆载着两匹马的车迎面而来，期待它们下车。。老师拍了早餐给我们后，大家纷纷找位子坐。哇！那盒饭辣到很够力咯。。 == 结果吃不完，给垃圾桶吃咯。。呵呵~
[进军planetarium]
经过了很长很长的楼梯，我们到了。。。 ==
进到去，里面不会很大，但，还不错！^^

[下一站---Muzium Negara]
同一个地方，只是在对面而已。。过了桥后，到了。
进到里面，再次疯狂牌照……
哈哈~在里面，看到很多 sejarah teks book 里面的图片…
==
从里面拍爽出来后，就到kafe休息。
在这里，很意外的，发生了一些误会。。
令我很不好意思，也被她误会了。。
我尝试想解释，其实那照片是别有用途的．．．
不要误会我，好吗？
我真的别无其想的．．．
对不起如果我令你伤心．．．
很抱歉～～
真的很抱歉．．．
请相信我．．．

[最后一站－－Taman Orkid（喂蚊子）＝＝]
去到哪里，被蚊子叮．．．痒痒痒～
倪更厉害，她敏感．．．
在那边发现一个很美很美的地方，情不自禁立刻拍照．．．哇哈哈哈～
好浪漫的地方，如果没蚊子．．．

［回家噜～］
终于我们踏上归途．．．还蛮不错的一天．．．（哈哈，敷衍．．）
回到学校后，淇她立刻去打包仅仅只有星期四才有卖的东炎．．嘻嘻嘻．．．
之后，大家都纷纷回家了咯．．
︿︿


[我滴心声，只想对你说]
对不起，
我没其他的意思，
请别误会我...
对不起，
请你相信我好吗？
不想与你之间少了信任...
对不起，
不能给你换来安全感，
也换不回你对我的信任吗？
对不起，
我真的不知道该怎么说了，
不想没了你这位，
对我来说蛮重要的朋友...
只希望，
用时间来证明，
我对你的心意...
希望能带给你一些，
永远抹灭不了的回忆...

今天，我弄痛了她的心。。。
我们之间的信任，
少了。。。
也许，
不久的以后，
我会少了一位，
可以分享的朋友。。。
只希望她。。。
相信我。。。
i doenst meant to hurt u..
never never think so...
if the "acident" dint happen..
everythg will be going on smoothly......
blame myself..
nt alert at all.....
T~T

SORRY!!! SORRY N SORRY!!!

原谅我，自私的想法。。。

今天，
我看到了你的部落格，
其实，
我明白你所说的。
顿时，
我被你所说的...
打动了。
泪水在眼睛里打转，
也许，
你觉得我是骗人的，
但......
那种温暖的感觉，
你不会明白...
才发现，
原来你一直在我身边...
多次，
我选择自己一个人，
正如你们所说的“不合群”
其实，
这并不是我想要的，
而是我觉得，
我融入不进你们...
你们说的，
我不知道...
所以，
宁愿自己一个人静下来。
有时，
我在想我自己的事情，
很想与你们分享，
但...
我觉得你们不应该为我的事情烦恼。
你们，
是乐天派的，
而我......


很想说，
“对不起”
请原谅我，就是这样的一个人...
虽然有时候，
你的言语会令我感觉到不舒服，
但我想，这就是你！
唯一的你！
我会学会释怀，
习惯你的习惯，
好吗？
面对你对我的关心，
我会很意外，
因为，
从没想过你会这样的关心我，
你的关心，
让我体会到友情的温暖，
令我觉得，
我不再是被抛在后头的那一个......

忘了有多久没有过这种感受了，
还真得有点不习惯，
也许，是我个人出现问题吧...
但，
下来的日子里，
我想，
我应该不会在孤单，
因为有你们的关心！
原谅我这种自私的想法，
我真得很害怕----一个人的世界...

突然想念......
你那无里头的笑声......
谢谢你！！

。我的雨天。

“你能体谅我有雨天，偶尔胆缺你都了解。。。”

最近，

　耳边响起了___雨天，
　　仿佛能体会到，
　　　里头的感觉．．．

你与我的距离，
　越来越远．．．

　　偶尔，
　　　我会胆怯．．．
　　　　你都了解吗？

此刻我的脚步，

　放慢了，

　　是因为你吗？

　　　还是．．．

　　　　我已经完完全全的迷失方向了？

你给我的回忆，

　会被大雨洗涤吗？

　　还是．．．

是否太晚？
　我们．．．

　　已走得很远，很远了．．．

　　　回头看见的，　　　

　　　　都是过去的回忆．．．

如果我变成回忆，
　那你呢？　
　　想念下雨时，
　　　那回忆起你的感觉．．．　

做回朋友，要学会珍惜与挽留．．．